Thursday, November 18, 2010

Away for tooooo long!

I have been away too long! It is now time to catch up, however I honestly dont know where to begin because so much has happened!!! I am very happy with everything in my life and everyone in it! I have the best husband I could ever ask for whose love for God has grown tremendously and that indeed makes my heart so happy. We as a family have grown spiritually and have yet to grow, but as we take this road we know it can only get easier from here. As the Thanksgiving holiday approaches we are reminded to be thankful for everything we have, but we should always give thanks to God EVERY DAY we are blessed with. And always keep in mind that we must not worry about the things we dont have and appreciate the things we DO have. Everything happens for a reason, EVERYTHING. We may not always understand in the moment, but even then we shouldnt question, just pray that it too shall pass.... all in due time. I have been super busy these past months, but its a good busy!! :) After the women's retreats that I attended, I joined the group that coordinates and helps to make these wonderful events possible- Pequenos hijos de Maria- and I couldnt be happier! They are indeed my 2nd family, they are all so nice and so fun to be around. ESPECIALLY my Odessa peeps plus Carlsbad. Luv u all so much!!! I have been traveling alot, more than what I was used to, but its such an exciting feeling every time we hit the road! Just the thought of all the amazing things that happen during the course of the weekend, is indescribable... During the week, we travel some when needed as well. My husband is a drummer for a praise and worship group and they are asked to go to some of our surrounding towns and we enjoy that very much so! We do all this because our heart is into it, if it wasnt this would reflect in us by far... We continue to feed ourselves spiritually because we cannot give what we do not have.... no one can. I will try to do a better job of keeping up with this,,, no promises! (wink wink) oh and btw, the thought of Christmas being right around the corner is so crazy!!! lol However, I LOVE CHRISTmas!!!! much love- Yess ;)

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Weekend retreat!

Hello Friends!!

Another wonderful and amazing experience this past weekend April 30th-May 2nd! I attended my 2nd womens retreat in Saragosa, TX, about 5 hrs 30 mins from my home,,, but it was oh so worth it! This time was a little more special to me since I was able to take along with me my mother, aunt, cousin, and 2 dear friends who are sisters! I have to say it was not at all easy though, which in the end made it even more amazing since there was alot we had to go through to get all of us there! When I first made the invite, a good almost 2 months ahead, as soon as I found out the dates-- I heard nothing back from none of them! This saddened me tremendously. I then sent out another txt message and again nothing. But I was determined not to give up, I felt almost as if it was not an option to give up on them, If God didnt give up on us, why should I? FINALLY, they all responded literally 1 week before our departure! I was SOOOO happy that they listened, no to me, but to Gods calling. :) The first retreat I attended was in Carlsbad, NM and there were 40 of us women there, well this time there were a total of 120 women!! Not including the people who help make this event possible, so we had a "full house"! Personally, I think thats what makes it even more fun, to be able to meet other women and be of support for them even though we just meet! It felt so good to be there for others and help them out and be their shoulder to cry on. We laughed, we cried, and we hardly slept, but indeed overall had an amazing time! The best gift I could have received from this is seeing the ladies I invited be so happy and really enjoying these 3 days. And like me the first time around, they did not want to leave the place!! Now I tell them, it is their turn to take people and share what they have gone through. God is generous and shares His love with us for that purpose, to continue to share His love and word to others, especially our loved ones! Well another eventful weekend coming up as well, my dear cousin is graduating from UTPB in Odessa this Saturday!!! We plan on leaving Friday evening right after work and stay in a hotel overnight since her graduation is @ 9 am and we live almost 4 hours away! And then of course Sunday is mothers day!!! I will be lucky to spend the day with my mom, and those who have their mothers close by, take the time to really appreciate her and value all shes done through the years... and those who dont have her close or have already passed to be with our Lord, say an extra little prayer in her name. Its not all about the gifts and the how much they cost, its about the sincere love you can show to your dear mother. Well everyone, have a fantastic remainder of the week and smile! It doesnt cost anything to do so, and can mean SO much to others. Always remember that somewhere, someone out there is going through a much more difficult time than you may think you are. So dont dwell or ponder on what you dont have, and appreciate what do you have! Much love, Yess :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

so far so good!

Hello friends on this gloomy and cloudy day- we've been expecting rain for a few days now, but it looks like today will be the day it comes down on us! A little refreshing is always good :) So my new job has been going very good and I am liking it everday more and more! Its alot to remember and detailed, but I am catching on and hope to know everything SOON!! It frustrates me not knowing ALL already, but its the OCD in me I guess! LOL... I love being able to have the days in between to get caught up with housework or any errands that need to be done or of course subbing with the kiddos at school! Yesterday one of the agents grilled fish for us @ lunch and it was de-lish! I took my special punchbowl cake as dessert in hopes they would like and yep it was a hit!! They loved it. So when I blog it destresses me, seriously! Id like to vent a little as well today-- ok so Im in a state of confusion with the way people are towards God. To me personally I think we should praise and glorify Him everyday and at all times. Our ups and downs equally! Why is it that some only turn to Him in times of need or want? Does God abandon us off and on? No He doesnt! I know I cant change the world but when I try to light a lil flame at least and am turned down or ignored altogether, that hurts... God willing, I will be attending another womens retreat in Saragoza, TX on April 30-May 2nd. I am really excited and am taking my mom and aunt and hopefully my wonderful cousin. I have invited a few friends but havent heard back from them, I still hope and pray though that I will hear a "yes I'll go" even if its last minute! Leslie's recital is this weekend and I cant wait to see her shine on stage! She loves to dance and perform so I know she will do GREAT! well until next time, much love to all! Yess :)

Friday, April 9, 2010

catch up time!!!

Ok so I have been away from blogging way tooooo long! But Im back!! :) So many things have happened that I dont even know where to begin!!! We have continued to be soooooooooooooooooo blessed in all aspects our lives. To start off and by far the most important to me is my health. It has been one month since I was taken off the meds and my platelet count has maintained itself in normal range!! PRAISE GOD!!! I love Him!!! Easter weekend was so fabulous, it had SO much more meaning to me than any other year. My relationship with our Savior has grown so much closer that I truly feel His presence especially at time of our Sunday mass. We have been attending bible study weekly as a family and rosary at church every Wednesday and Thursday communion service as well. I have seen many of my close friends also have an awesome turn around towards His word and it makes me so happy. He is Love and Life, I wish ALL the ppl in the world realized this NOW! So.... since Ive been unemployed as of May 2009, I have prayed that God guide me in the path He wants and not mine. We have been blessed throughout this time, yes I have been able to sub at the school but we all know that isnt even considered part time, only "as needed"... but even with this, we have managed to make it just dandy! well... last week a knock on my door (literally) God sent of course :) It was a job offer! I prayed extra hard that if this was meant to be for me then so be it and if not then oh well. I went for my working interview/ trial day on Tuesday and by end of that day I was already filling out new hire paperwork!!! YAY! It will only be M-W-F 8-5, but its fab because I will still be able to either have my days off to do what is needed around the house or continue to sub for mu school kiddos!!! :) The pay is not what I expected or that I thought I deserved, however with quick reflection I realized that if this was a start from the bottom kind of deal, then I accept the challenge! In the long run, the learning experience I gain from this new job is def worth it!!! It makes me happy to be able to be back in what I love doing... Im a paperwork kinda gal and I love working with the public! I love helping out others!!! So, I hope that all goes well day after day! Ohhhh and only 33 days of school left of this year!! WOW, time flies! I for sure love the warmer weather also! This coming week is Leslie's last week of dance for this year and her recital is Sunday the 18th! Its always a bittersweet moment when we see her perform, we are glad the rushing is over to get her to class week after week and so happy to see her SHINE on stage, but then sad that she wont dance until September again when classes resume. :) Family life is super duper and my friends are totally awesome! I love you all! well until next time, much love! Yess :)

Sunday, February 21, 2010

learning growth every day...

Ive been away for a while so I thought I better get back on the blogger wagon! I wish I could figure out how to put up pics, but oh well... so as far as m y everyday life, its been absolutely wonderful, thanks to God... Ive been busy subbing @ the school and I enjoy it everytime, for one it keeps me occupied mentally and emotionally.. although my evenings go by super fast that I feel that Im rush rush as soon as school is over. With getting dinner ready and getting Les to dance and then the days we have bible study and church service. I cant really complain though because at the end of the day as Im in bed praying and giving thanks for another day He has blessed us with, it makes for a very peaceful nights sleep. :) Because ladies and gentlemen, God is cool like that... hehe... My health is good, so thankful for sure! I feel more able and willing to do more things each day and Im loving it! Ive been walking on the treadmill in the evenings for 20 mins and I feel great afterwards! Tomorrow God willing, I start going to our local gym and taking a jazzercise class, should be interesting! LOL Hubby became a member as well so we hope to stick with it! I struggled with a little cold this past week, but Im finally getting over it... This weather has been a roller coaster but for most part gets stuck at the highest peak being the COLDNESS! We have had wintry mix, rain, sleet, u name it. Another cold front on its way and possible snow as early as tomorrow, yipee... (sarcasm) Marriage life couldnt be better, we have been so "chill" (no pun intended) hehe... but seriously, so happy and thankful each day to be married to my wonderful hubs! Leslie lost her front tooth this past week and the "forgetful tooth fairy" didnt leave money under her pillow for 3 days in a row!! ugh! She was already skeptical so each day it just raised her frustration... and besides her friend told her the tooth fairy didnt exist because she saw her mom put the money under the pillow... we finally convinced her otherwise, it kinda makes me sad that the innocence is slowly disappearing. I would so love to shelter her from so many things, although I know that if we dont tell her here @ home, she will hear it elsewhere. Kids these days grow up so fast though! Either that or I was just so naive during my childhood, but Im glad I was that way because I learned things as I grew at the right time! We will continue to do our best at parenting and praying for her to choose the right path always :) Ohhh, I have a confession... I am addicted to playing Bejeweled on FB! LOL... And when I see that a certain someone gets a higher score, it just motivates me to accept the challenge and try to beat it!!! Cesar has also officially become enthused with the darn game as well and hardly lets me play so that HE can!! lol... well I think thats it for now, until next time, much love! Yess :)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Perseverance in prayer

Hello my fab friends! where to start this evening....? Ok so Tuesday morning, bright and early I had my weekly bloodwork and when I got my results I so could have done the HAPPY DANCE then and there because my count went up!!! Not only did it go up but it was almost 4 times more than last weeks!!! 234,000!!! I was so happy and overwhelmed with emotion and of course so very thankful to God for still proving to me that He has never left my side! And that He is awesome! Goes to show that if we truly believe in what we are praying for, and are patient, He answers gladly :) My doctor has lowered my dose on the meds and his nurse said he was very pleased with the results... I thought to myself "he's pleased?? Im for sure more than pleased!!!!" lol... From that day until now, I have been gleaming and beaming, wink wink P... I def have smiled more even with our gloomy dark days lately! Speaking of, when it hasnt been raining and cold its just flat out cold!! I am so ready for some sunshine and warmth! But I know, I know, this is what God wants right now so we shall accept... Afterall we ARE still in the winter season! Today it has snowed since 6:30 am and still coming down steady... kids had to go to school but then 2 hours into classes, announcement was made that "due to inclement weather, school would be having early release" DUH ppl! lol... so the chaos began, calling parents so that they could arrange to be there @ 11:45 to pick up their kiddos!... tomorrow are the v-day parties @ school and the bad mother I am, I waited until the last minute to get Leslie's v-day cards and no "girl" ones left @ wal-mart... :( However, we were in luck and found her fave v-day candy packets based on the movie New Moon from the Twilight series. So I def did a sigh of relief! WHEW! Speaking of valentines day... the hubs and I really dont have anything planned, Im a planner, however I get very disappointed when the plans dont go as planned! lol.. so I have learned that sometimes spur of the moment turns out better! I would LIKE to go watch a movie and dinner at least so we'll see :) As long as its not a rental, and ME cooking the dinner!!!!!!!!! LOL U know what, at this point just as long as we are happy, healthy and harmonious forget v-day!!! Make everyday a LOVE day! Until next time, much love, Yess :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Inspiration

Im back! ok so this weekend was kind of a lay low one for our fam, which was nice. :) Friday night we were invited to a b-day dinner for my best friend's hubby... Food was De-LISH and cake was yummylicious! We had a good time talking and laughing, great evening overall. Saturday I spent half the day doing laundry that had snuck up on me! Cesar FINALLY got to our bedroom project putting sheetrock up on one of our walls... painting is still pending, so we'll see when THAT gets done... better b soon, our room is so unorganized right now due to the scattered mess! But the end result will be worth it! :) And today we went to church this morning, great service and refreshing like always! Hubby waiting for Super Bowl to begin ONLY because he bought a "square" to benefit his hometown in MX... some kind of remodeling project they are undergoing there. He knows NOTHING about football so this should be interesting, lol. Of course all he cares about is knowing the score at the end of each quarter. haha... :) So yesterday evening I finally found my "lost" comments for this blog!!! YAY! I was so bummed that I kept writing away and my friends would ask why their comments were not showing up! So anyway, I read them all and appreciate them ALL. Michelle, thank you for letting me know that I have been in a way an inspiration to you. It really made me feel warm and good inside. I never imagined that I could be. Ive always hoped to be to someone, and now I feel accomplished. hehe... What I am going through now and "battling" has been a difficult journey, however with much prayer and my awesome friends to lift up my spirits, it has seemed to get a lil easier. God is great and I truly believe that everyone He has put in my path and in my life has been for a reason. I cherish all aspects of this so much! I hope to continue to be an example of FAITH and to hopefully be of inspiration to others, that with God all things are possible... ALL things! Another week is ahead of us and I hope that each day gets better and better for me. Im staying positive, I really am! Last night we watched the movie "Fireproof" who had been recommended by an awesome lady! We absolutely LOVED it, great message and I now recommend to all as being a MUST SEE MOVIE! My husband said its one of the "BEST" movies HE has seen. Now thats a double "wow!" lol... Now I hear from another great amiga that I should really watch Book of Eli, so that is next on my to watch list! well gals and guys, this is it for now, until next time, much love- Yess :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Faith and Tribulation...

Hello friends... So... yesterday was an emotional day for me and I hate that I let it get me down. I should know better, and it gets me every DARN time!!! I battle with the demon of "fear" in trying times. I have been through ALOT in my life and now that Im having these health issues, I gather up strength, I pray, Im positive, etc... but when Im tested of all these things that I think I have a good grasp on, BAM! something happens and my heart aches all over again :( I went early to the hospital to get my routine bloodwork that I am to have done weekly... well my platelet count has dropped. As soon as I found out, the weakness overcame me and I felt an overwhelming "need" to cry, but I didnt... for one I had Leslie with me and on the other hand I thought what good does that do me? It sure wont increase my count then and there... :( I have been subbing for the elementary all week and was scheduled to go in that day as well, honestly friends I wanted to call in and go home and crawl into my bed, yes in state of mega depression. BUT... I held back my tears and kept strong and I drove to school. All day I stayed very strong, the wanting to cry was there, but I knew I just couldnt do so... However when we were home after school and Cesar got home I lost it! Tear fest indeed. I dont like to question why and how God does things, because He knows what He's doing, but friends it so much harder to follow Gods plan and path than I thought. My husband comforted me and stayed very calm and reassured me that everything is going to be okay. I asked him, am I not praying correctly? Am I not worthy of being healed? Which Cesar told me not to ever ask again, God knows why He does what he does and He knows I have the strength to accept all of this in His precious love, which only made the tears flow even more, but I understood what he was trying to tell me and make me understand... We must not let doubt overcome the faith because then all that we have worked towards to- faithwise becomes LOST. That is something very difficult to comprehend. I am great at giving everyone else advice and picking them up when they are down. It is so easy for me to pray for others, but it is so HARD to pray for myself... We attended bible study last night and at the end of our discussion they prayed that God heal me. I cried through the whole prayer, but I appreciated it VERY much. I slept well and today I was in good spirit. I am back on the meds and pray SO HARD that it will help increase these darn platelets! Also, that soon I am free from this horrible illness FOREVER! I believe in the power of prayer and thank everyone that has prayed for me, it is a blessing to have so many ppl care for me and it feels really good inside. I am crying as I wrap this post up, but Im also releasing much of what I keep couped up inside... thank you friends for your support and kind words. Thank You God for this blessed day and everday that you bless us with. Much love, Yess :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

The weekend I have been waiting for...!

Hello my friends!!! I kno I kno, I have not been doing a good job of keeping up after I promised myself to do so!!! but anyway, Im back and with a really good blog today!! ok so back in December I attended a womens retreat, my first one ever, and I really enjoyed it!! I mean REALLY enjoyed it! So after I had experienced it and arrived home I shared with my husband how awesome it was and how awesome it made me feel. He was happy for me, but that was it. He wanted no part in ever experiencing for himself. To be honest it kinda hurt my feelings the way he put it... I mentioned that a mens retreat was coming up soon, and before I could even BEGIN to suggest that he attend, he stopped me right in my tracks of words and said in a rude manner "if theres a mens retreat I WONT go" It hurt my feelings but I dropped the subject and never really talked about it again to him. In the meantime I prayed alot about it though. I knew that I myself could never force him to go so I prayed that God touch his heart and mind so that from his own person he would want to go. As with most men my husband likes to drink his beer every now and then, but the fact that he doesnt drink often, I guess his mindset is to drink nonstop when he has the chance and well I HATE IT! Always have and always will... Hes not the violent or hateful "drunk", hes the happy talkative "type" and that burns me up even more! I have never been into the drinking thing, I really dont understand the concept, ppl drink and drink and then feel horrible the next day???? odd to me that one would put oneself in that kind of predicament! LOL! I can honestly say I can count how many girly fruity drinks Ive had in my life, starting at age 24! haha... yea lame to some, but like I said not my "cup of tea" So anyway, 90% of any of our arguments have been over his coming home "happy", and the love that I feel for him turns quick into "I love you so much that I HATE that you do this therefore you make me hate YOU!" Very frustrating because in the sober normal state he is the best husband I could ever ask for and the best dad Leslie could ever have! So the fact that alcohol could have such an impact on our lives especially our marriage makes me want to vomit! But a "macho man" not drink, that is unheard of!! ugh! Needless to say I pray so much for this awful enemy to withdraw itself completely from him FOREVER! Well, ladies and gentlemen, Im not sure what it was that prompted him to FINALLY decide to go, but this past weekend Cesar Palacios, aka my hubby, lol, attended a mens retreat in Odessa, TX!!!! Alleluya!!!! :) The fact that he even "decide" to go was a blessing in itself, but then came the real and true test... Would he even get anything out of it? Would he be bored out of his mind? Would he feel what God has been trying to tell him? I prayed so very much since he left Friday until yesterday. At the end of these retreats they hold a special closing ceremony so that family and friends can be there for support. Well we decided to surprise him and we took off yesterday morning in order to be there by 3 pm! I say surprise him because we never mentioned that we would go. He left Friday @ noon along with 5 other men and as he left I thought to myself, "God please guide all of them in Your path" So Leslie, my mom, and I get there and we hide so Cesar couldnt see us. To see him be SOOOO into the worship and sing to our Savior--- It brought tears to our eyes, bawling!! But they were tears of happiness... When the service ended, Leslie and I went up tom him from behind and he was totally shocked and so happy to see us as we were as well to see him! We held each other for what seemed an eternity but we didnt want to let go and it was just amazing! I hope this lasts in him forever!! There were so many men that attended, we were very surprised to see all of them together in worship and loving it! Cesar said he enjoyed it so much and he didnt even want to leave, lol! I remember feeling the same way when I went.... it was just so much peace and heart filled of so much LOVE... *big sigh* There were even 4 men that proposed to their "wives" in civil union to be married through the church.!! That was def another tear fest! lol... all in all my friends this was something so amazing for my family and we are so blessed to have been able to live this. whew! Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed! :) Much love, Yess :)

Monday, January 25, 2010

Dr. visit

Hey gals and dudes if you are reading also.. :) so today was the first time I saw the dr again since leaving the hospital... I mentally prepared myself or so I thought and much prayer like always.. the wait in the room was agonizing enough but I managed to keep my mind occupied as I looked out the window at construction right there by clinic @ hospital... Scary big machines and cranes with guys on harnesses hanging literally from the side of their work place. I waited and waited and prayed and prayed... Finally dr walks in and he is just so nice that I am so blessed to have him as my doctor in this trying time. His name is very appropriate as well, Dr. Heaven. :) Hes very personable and talkative. Very informative, however with this condition there is really no explanation as to why it happens, what triggers it or when it will go away.. Thats a lil unsettling to my heart and soul, but I must stay strong and know that God is in control. Really KNOW He is and not have any doubt... a prayer with doubt is not a valid prayer! I had blood work done there and my platelet count has gone down, but perhaps because of the meds also going down on dosage. 6 more days of meds and then nothing to see how I maintain the count on my own. I asked about something that is very dear to me, whether or not a pregnancy would trigger this ITP even more. He said theres really no way of knowing, but because this is my 2nd episode and this time without a fetus, I would more than likely be at high risk of going through this again. That part really saddens me deeply. For years we have wanted another baby, but the fear of me going through this again and how dangerous the situation could become has prevented or halted us from doing so. Many times though I have let God know that Im at peace if its His will for us just to be blessed with Leslie, our miracle indeed. But in the back of my heart, theres always that lil want for another baby... Oh well, I need to overcome that and take care of my health exactly for Leslie above all, she needs me and I cant be selfish and "want" what isnt possible and then God forbid leave her alone to fend for herself. I will pray even more for the strength I need to let go of things like those. The wants and needs on my part do not count, the want or need He decides to grant me is what DOES count. I have wonderful friends who are so supportive of me no matter what and that is definately a plus especially at times like these. I need them so much to prop me back up when I begin to slide down... Thank you girls! :) That is a blessing in itself! Next appt isnt until Feb. 15th, so we'll see. Smiles and positiveness until then! oh btw, off to the treadmill due to the 5 lbs Ive gained.. not bueno! and its all in my cheeks!!! Darn steroids! lol! much love, ciao! Yess :)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Blessed day :)

Hello amigos!!! So we started our day off fairly early this morn in preparation of our trip to Abilene to baptize lil Matthew Ramon... No drama so that was def a plus! Everyone in good mood and smooth sailing! The church service was great and was packed. Baptisms were held afterwards for some odd reason, but it was nice not to have so many people's eyes on us :) Matthew did wonderful, he slept thru service and was well rested for his big debut! The holy water was warm and startled him a bit, but he was okay after... all smiles! Sweet baby :) This makes our 5th Godchild of baptism... such a blessing. Les loves it even more because these are all her brothers and sisters as well! She makes sure to let everyone know also! I remember when she was in pre-k, she shared with ther teacher and dictated to her so that the following could be written: I have 2 sisters and 1 brother... and when I met the teacher she asked for my children??? I was like um, Les is my only daughter..??? Then she explained... Oh Les, should've known! Afterwards we went to have lunch with the family, and because I wasnt doing so bueno with the good ole stomach from the day before I was afraid to eat anything, but thankfully Im doing good. I went with a safe salad. :) We drove back and have been relaxing the rest of the day and sure have enjoyed it! Thank you God for this beautiful day you blessed us with! Tomorrow Monday again, back to the routine... I have a doctor's appt tomorrow afternoon so I hope all goes well!! I have God by my side so let me rephrase that, I KNOW all will go well!!! Still praying super duper hard!! I feel better each day, a lil tired from time to time, but I just rest it out a lil bit and recharge to keep on going like the energizer bunny! I want to be able to do more exercise activity, waistline is reminding me of that... ick! But I def want to be healthy above all things, so friends you gotta love me thin or FAT! too bad! LOL :) well, thats it for now, Im tired and going to call it a night,,, or as my friends know, going to go to bed and still have my phone and post away until 11 pm on Facebook!!! hahahaha! catch ya there! Much love, Yess :)

Friday, January 22, 2010

weekend ahead...

well well well, Friday evening again... Just got done eating a scrumptious dinner and am absolutely stuffed and SATISFIED! lol! When food is Satisfying, there is a problem-yikes! Again friends, I blame it on the meds for this increased appetite, although I do have to say for the most part it is healthy eating and not junk food exageration... :) Today was so beautiful outside and the sun shining so bright! However, sadly cold front tonight and back to the 50's & 60's this weekend. Oh well, whatever weather God sends we must accept! We have to make a trip to A-town manana to run some errands and there is a birthday party we are invited to as well... Not so sure if we will able to make it or not yet due to other circumstances... And then Sunday we go again to Abilene and baptise baby Matthew! :) This will make our 5th God child! So blessed to be able to hold such responsibility!! Makes me happy though that they choose us to hold this important role in their baby's life. First and foremost to keep the faith in them as we set a very good example in how we live everyday! :) Just a lil problem, I cant decide on what to wear for it yet!!! Always the dilemna!!! haha.. I dare not to bring it up to the hubby though because I can hear the griping already- closet full and you dont know what to wear???!!! ugh, men, they just dont understand about these things! :) He has his outfit ready and got his haircut today in prep of.. haha.. men are just so much simpler, nice shirt and slacks and voila they are ready! We'll see how Sunday goes with all of this.. I will post pics of the outcome! I was also planning on working on our tax return this weekend but Im missing a W-2... grrr.... Im ready for some extra $$$$$... LOL.... well thats all for tonight chicos and chicas! Much love and smile always! Lifes too short not to. :)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Interesting day....

We meet again! :) So today I went back to substituting for the school, only half a day, but it was a good transition to getting back into swing of things... Its nice staying home and relaxing, but it can get boring and lonely :( I missed my little students and they were happy to see me and that made my day! It doesnt pay well, but the hours and convenience of being at the same place with my daughter makes it worth it! And plus I can still tend to my wife and mother duties afterwards without being pressed for time or stressed out of my mind!!! I also feel like Im helping out a little financially as well... I did feel like I missed out on my mini nap though, haha... I could have so curled up and slept right there in the classroom around 2ish!! LOL well, that was the highpoint of my day besides shopping for car insurance and home insurance, what a pain!!! Its reasonable but jst the fact of comparing here and there is a drag! well guys until next time, Im out, literally, for the night! Sweet dreams! :)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

super duper happy day!

Hello friends! So lets see where do I begin today... I guess by telling everyone the super duper happiness I feel!! This morning was the first day to really see what kind of progress Ive made regarding my platelet count since being out of the hospital and on medication... so, I said a lil prayer calmly and filled with lots of FAITH and headed out the door. They took my blood and informed me it would only take about 15 mins to let me know the results so as I waited I maintained much peace and was very confident that God has never left my side... and then TA-TA-TA-TAN!!!! The greatest news I could have heard the lab tech tell me, "yay they found you some platelets alright! count 189,000!!!!" YIPEEE!!! I could have so done the happy dance right then and there! I thanked God sooooo much for allowing this to happen! And I just know that I will continue to do better each day with tons of prayer and most all BELIEVE what I pray. There is such thing you know that people can pray with doubt... such as what if He doesnt hear me, and what if my prayers dont get answered? But we have to completely do away with the doubtful and rhetorical questions. Be firm and clear when you pray and talk to God and He will def listen, no questions asked! So needless to say that made for a great start to my terrific Tuesday! Last night we attended a church service in Abilene, they hold this special service every 3rd Monday @ St. Francis Catholic Church and I absolutely love it! I felt at so much MORE peace when I left and to know that all the people there had been and continue to pray for my health is so uplifting. I got up to speak in front of everyone to give my testimony of faith and what I have been through these past couple of weeks... I did better than I thought I would, not alot of tears!! yay! lol. I needed to share His wonderful work and healing and it felt good. We got home late, but it is always so worth it! :) ok, guys and gals, until next time! Luv to all!

Yess :)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

a relaxing Sunday :)

Hello my friends! Today was such a great and relaxing day for me! I am so very grateful! Of course how much better could I have started it then by attending church! Service was great and I was so blessed to be able to be there after missing out last Sunday due to me being hospitalized :( Health wise I felt even better today than yesterday, which is always a plus for sure! Each day I seem to be gaining more strength and dont get AS tired although I do feel tired periodically throughout the day... But I know I have Him right by my side so Im gonna be A-OKAY! I even managed to do a lil local shopping with my mommy, that always cheers one up right?! I am really gonna miss her though when she leaves for work tomorrow... She has been such a blessing, good company, support and on and on..... Did I mention cooking! awww.... def gonna miss that! I thank God for my mom! Tuesday I am having bloodwork to see how I am doing so please pray for me friends!!!!! I will def keep all posted... U decided to join me on this ride, you are stuck with me! Love to all and may everyone have a fabulous week and may God bless each and everyone of you in whatever you may do!!! xoxoxo

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Beginning of a new hobby :)

Well well, where to begin... I have been wanting to start a blog for a while now after seeing so many of my friends keep up with one, so here it goes! I hope to be able to keep it up to date and if I dont I will summarize the best that I can~

End of new year and into the beginning was a little rocky for our household. However, by the grace of our mighty God, we are coming out of this strong! Let me just tell ya a lil about it...

When I was pregnant with our daughter, I suffered from a low platelet count called Thrombocytopenia... Throughout the pregnancy, it was very difficult for me not only physically but emotionally as well. Thank God, although she was born premature @ 8 months, she is a beautiful healthy little 7 year old! You would have never known by seeing her now that she was ever a tiny premie of 3 lbs. 14 ozs. She has exceeded her height and growing healthy and strong! So anyway, back to the illness... when my platelet count got dangerously low, I was at risk for hemorraging, literally could bleed to death. Very scary. The only indication I had then was a "rash" I noticed coming up on random spots of my body... later known to me as Petichae... broken blood vessels/capillaries under the skin... but by the time I see these spots its because my count is LOW! Normal count for everyone is at LEAST 150,000 and up, back then I had maybe 5,000... maybe... so hospitalization for sure.. on top of carrying a baby, yikes! Throughout my prenancy I was on a steroid treatment to increase my platelet count and to be able to carry my baby. Did I BLOW UP! lol, at 4 months, I looked as if I was 7 or 8 months already!! Needless to say, that certain medication increases appetite! Well, I delivered her well with no problems besides all these obstacles and had a lil trouble with this illness still for about a year or 2 after her birth... These last 5 years I have been fairly healthy and carefree of this problem, UNTIL.... last 2 weeks of 2009!

I was under ALOT of stress during the holiday time, not even having to do with the whole gift mess, just lots of people sick in my family, etc.... and I felt as if I was incapable of doing more for them! I felt almost useless... My husband has his parents in MX, 18 hours away from here and he had left right after Christmas to spend time with them and was gone for 11 LONG days! It really had an impact on me... I missed him extremely, I felt so ALONE... so anyway, I start noticing this hideous rash again!!! YES after all these years here it was to haunt me again! I was scared and of course stubborn not wanting to go to dr... thinking "it will go away" well it wasnt going away and was in fact getting progressively worse. So finally I broke down, literally tears and all, and got the courage to face this @ a local doctors office Friday Jan. 8th... day of truth. I was sent to have bloodwork and based on my past history, there was no doubt that it had to do with this darn platelet count again. Sure enough although doctor told me I wouldnt be hearing from him until Monday with results, not even an hour passed when I get the dreaded phonecall... "Mrs. Palacios, you need to go to ER immediately, just received your results and your platelet count is 9,000" I bawled my eyes out and wanted to be in such denial... We arrived @ ER and with my heartbroken and super scared, they decided to transfer me by ambulance to Abilene Regional Medical Center to be closer to a specialist in this field. Saturday morning after bloodwork, my count dropped even more to 2,000. YES, I thought oh my, what next? Doctor informed me that I was not even to get up by myself to bathroom because I could BLEED and they would not be able to stop it! and that I would be started immediately on an immunoglobin treatment for 4 days to see how it worked to get me better. so Friday I was an emotional mess, but friends I have to share with you that Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues (day I was finally released) I felt at such peace. Peace from God and my faith kept me strong and willing to continue... MUCH MUCH prayer and prayers from so many people allowed me to get better each day! THANK YOU! Sunday I wake up to 14,000 count, Monday, 47,000 and Tuesday when I left 97,000!!!! PRAISE GOD! Later I will share my encounter with God at a retreat I attended first week of December, and I truly beleive this helped me so much to get through this recent dificult time. Whew! what a way to start a blog huh??? oh and btw, I was able to be @ home the following day for my birthday!!! not an all great way to celebrate, but I gave so much thanks for allowing me to be alive another b-day!!! :)