learning growth every day...

Ive been away for a while so I thought I better get back on the blogger wagon! I wish I could figure out how to put up pics, but oh well... so as far as m y everyday life, its been absolutely wonderful, thanks to God... Ive been busy subbing @ the school and I enjoy it everytime, for one it keeps me occupied mentally and emotionally.. although my evenings go by super fast that I feel that Im rush rush as soon as school is over. With getting dinner ready and getting Les to dance and then the days we have bible study and church service. I cant really complain though because at the end of the day as Im in bed praying and giving thanks for another day He has blessed us with, it makes for a very peaceful nights sleep. :) Because ladies and gentlemen, God is cool like that... hehe... My health is good, so thankful for sure! I feel more able and willing to do more things each day and Im loving it! Ive been walking on the treadmill in the evenings for 20 mins and I feel great afterwards! Tomorrow God willing, I start going to our local gym and taking a jazzercise class, should be interesting! LOL Hubby became a member as well so we hope to stick with it! I struggled with a little cold this past week, but Im finally getting over it... This weather has been a roller coaster but for most part gets stuck at the highest peak being the COLDNESS! We have had wintry mix, rain, sleet, u name it. Another cold front on its way and possible snow as early as tomorrow, yipee... (sarcasm) Marriage life couldnt be better, we have been so "chill" (no pun intended) hehe... but seriously, so happy and thankful each day to be married to my wonderful hubs! Leslie lost her front tooth this past week and the "forgetful tooth fairy" didnt leave money under her pillow for 3 days in a row!! ugh! She was already skeptical so each day it just raised her frustration... and besides her friend told her the tooth fairy didnt exist because she saw her mom put the money under the pillow... we finally convinced her otherwise, it kinda makes me sad that the innocence is slowly disappearing. I would so love to shelter her from so many things, although I know that if we dont tell her here @ home, she will hear it elsewhere. Kids these days grow up so fast though! Either that or I was just so naive during my childhood, but Im glad I was that way because I learned things as I grew at the right time! We will continue to do our best at parenting and praying for her to choose the right path always :) Ohhh, I have a confession... I am addicted to playing Bejeweled on FB! LOL... And when I see that a certain someone gets a higher score, it just motivates me to accept the challenge and try to beat it!!! Cesar has also officially become enthused with the darn game as well and hardly lets me play so that HE can!! lol... well I think thats it for now, until next time, much love! Yess :)

Perseverance in prayer

Hello my fab friends! where to start this evening....? Ok so Tuesday morning, bright and early I had my weekly bloodwork and when I got my results I so could have done the HAPPY DANCE then and there because my count went up!!! Not only did it go up but it was almost 4 times more than last weeks!!! 234,000!!! I was so happy and overwhelmed with emotion and of course so very thankful to God for still proving to me that He has never left my side! And that He is awesome! Goes to show that if we truly believe in what we are praying for, and are patient, He answers gladly :) My doctor has lowered my dose on the meds and his nurse said he was very pleased with the results... I thought to myself "he's pleased?? Im for sure more than pleased!!!!" lol... From that day until now, I have been gleaming and beaming, wink wink P... I def have smiled more even with our gloomy dark days lately! Speaking of, when it hasnt been raining and cold its just flat out cold!! I am so ready for some sunshine and warmth! But I know, I know, this is what God wants right now so we shall accept... Afterall we ARE still in the winter season! Today it has snowed since 6:30 am and still coming down steady... kids had to go to school but then 2 hours into classes, announcement was made that "due to inclement weather, school would be having early release" DUH ppl! lol... so the chaos began, calling parents so that they could arrange to be there @ 11:45 to pick up their kiddos!... tomorrow are the v-day parties @ school and the bad mother I am, I waited until the last minute to get Leslie's v-day cards and no "girl" ones left @ wal-mart... :( However, we were in luck and found her fave v-day candy packets based on the movie New Moon from the Twilight series. So I def did a sigh of relief! WHEW! Speaking of valentines day... the hubs and I really dont have anything planned, Im a planner, however I get very disappointed when the plans dont go as planned! lol.. so I have learned that sometimes spur of the moment turns out better! I would LIKE to go watch a movie and dinner at least so we'll see :) As long as its not a rental, and ME cooking the dinner!!!!!!!!! LOL U know what, at this point just as long as we are happy, healthy and harmonious forget v-day!!! Make everyday a LOVE day! Until next time, much love, Yess :)

Inspiration

Im back! ok so this weekend was kind of a lay low one for our fam, which was nice. :) Friday night we were invited to a b-day dinner for my best friend's hubby... Food was De-LISH and cake was yummylicious! We had a good time talking and laughing, great evening overall. Saturday I spent half the day doing laundry that had snuck up on me! Cesar FINALLY got to our bedroom project putting sheetrock up on one of our walls... painting is still pending, so we'll see when THAT gets done... better b soon, our room is so unorganized right now due to the scattered mess! But the end result will be worth it! :) And today we went to church this morning, great service and refreshing like always! Hubby waiting for Super Bowl to begin ONLY because he bought a "square" to benefit his hometown in MX... some kind of remodeling project they are undergoing there. He knows NOTHING about football so this should be interesting, lol. Of course all he cares about is knowing the score at the end of each quarter. haha... :) So yesterday evening I finally found my "lost" comments for this blog!!! YAY! I was so bummed that I kept writing away and my friends would ask why their comments were not showing up! So anyway, I read them all and appreciate them ALL. Michelle, thank you for letting me know that I have been in a way an inspiration to you. It really made me feel warm and good inside. I never imagined that I could be. Ive always hoped to be to someone, and now I feel accomplished. hehe... What I am going through now and "battling" has been a difficult journey, however with much prayer and my awesome friends to lift up my spirits, it has seemed to get a lil easier. God is great and I truly believe that everyone He has put in my path and in my life has been for a reason. I cherish all aspects of this so much! I hope to continue to be an example of FAITH and to hopefully be of inspiration to others, that with God all things are possible... ALL things! Another week is ahead of us and I hope that each day gets better and better for me. Im staying positive, I really am! Last night we watched the movie "Fireproof" who had been recommended by an awesome lady! We absolutely LOVED it, great message and I now recommend to all as being a MUST SEE MOVIE! My husband said its one of the "BEST" movies HE has seen. Now thats a double "wow!" lol... Now I hear from another great amiga that I should really watch Book of Eli, so that is next on my to watch list! well gals and guys, this is it for now, until next time, much love- Yess :)

Faith and Tribulation...

Hello friends... So... yesterday was an emotional day for me and I hate that I let it get me down. I should know better, and it gets me every DARN time!!! I battle with the demon of "fear" in trying times. I have been through ALOT in my life and now that Im having these health issues, I gather up strength, I pray, Im positive, etc... but when Im tested of all these things that I think I have a good grasp on, BAM! something happens and my heart aches all over again :( I went early to the hospital to get my routine bloodwork that I am to have done weekly... well my platelet count has dropped. As soon as I found out, the weakness overcame me and I felt an overwhelming "need" to cry, but I didnt... for one I had Leslie with me and on the other hand I thought what good does that do me? It sure wont increase my count then and there... :( I have been subbing for the elementary all week and was scheduled to go in that day as well, honestly friends I wanted to call in and go home and crawl into my bed, yes in state of mega depression. BUT... I held back my tears and kept strong and I drove to school. All day I stayed very strong, the wanting to cry was there, but I knew I just couldnt do so... However when we were home after school and Cesar got home I lost it! Tear fest indeed. I dont like to question why and how God does things, because He knows what He's doing, but friends it so much harder to follow Gods plan and path than I thought. My husband comforted me and stayed very calm and reassured me that everything is going to be okay. I asked him, am I not praying correctly? Am I not worthy of being healed? Which Cesar told me not to ever ask again, God knows why He does what he does and He knows I have the strength to accept all of this in His precious love, which only made the tears flow even more, but I understood what he was trying to tell me and make me understand... We must not let doubt overcome the faith because then all that we have worked towards to- faithwise becomes LOST. That is something very difficult to comprehend. I am great at giving everyone else advice and picking them up when they are down. It is so easy for me to pray for others, but it is so HARD to pray for myself... We attended bible study last night and at the end of our discussion they prayed that God heal me. I cried through the whole prayer, but I appreciated it VERY much. I slept well and today I was in good spirit. I am back on the meds and pray SO HARD that it will help increase these darn platelets! Also, that soon I am free from this horrible illness FOREVER! I believe in the power of prayer and thank everyone that has prayed for me, it is a blessing to have so many ppl care for me and it feels really good inside. I am crying as I wrap this post up, but Im also releasing much of what I keep couped up inside... thank you friends for your support and kind words. Thank You God for this blessed day and everday that you bless us with. Much love, Yess :)

The weekend I have been waiting for...!

Hello my friends!!! I kno I kno, I have not been doing a good job of keeping up after I promised myself to do so!!! but anyway, Im back and with a really good blog today!! ok so back in December I attended a womens retreat, my first one ever, and I really enjoyed it!! I mean REALLY enjoyed it! So after I had experienced it and arrived home I shared with my husband how awesome it was and how awesome it made me feel. He was happy for me, but that was it. He wanted no part in ever experiencing for himself. To be honest it kinda hurt my feelings the way he put it... I mentioned that a mens retreat was coming up soon, and before I could even BEGIN to suggest that he attend, he stopped me right in my tracks of words and said in a rude manner "if theres a mens retreat I WONT go" It hurt my feelings but I dropped the subject and never really talked about it again to him. In the meantime I prayed alot about it though. I knew that I myself could never force him to go so I prayed that God touch his heart and mind so that from his own person he would want to go. As with most men my husband likes to drink his beer every now and then, but the fact that he doesnt drink often, I guess his mindset is to drink nonstop when he has the chance and well I HATE IT! Always have and always will... Hes not the violent or hateful "drunk", hes the happy talkative "type" and that burns me up even more! I have never been into the drinking thing, I really dont understand the concept, ppl drink and drink and then feel horrible the next day???? odd to me that one would put oneself in that kind of predicament! LOL! I can honestly say I can count how many girly fruity drinks Ive had in my life, starting at age 24! haha... yea lame to some, but like I said not my "cup of tea" So anyway, 90% of any of our arguments have been over his coming home "happy", and the love that I feel for him turns quick into "I love you so much that I HATE that you do this therefore you make me hate YOU!" Very frustrating because in the sober normal state he is the best husband I could ever ask for and the best dad Leslie could ever have! So the fact that alcohol could have such an impact on our lives especially our marriage makes me want to vomit! But a "macho man" not drink, that is unheard of!! ugh! Needless to say I pray so much for this awful enemy to withdraw itself completely from him FOREVER! Well, ladies and gentlemen, Im not sure what it was that prompted him to FINALLY decide to go, but this past weekend Cesar Palacios, aka my hubby, lol, attended a mens retreat in Odessa, TX!!!! Alleluya!!!! :) The fact that he even "decide" to go was a blessing in itself, but then came the real and true test... Would he even get anything out of it? Would he be bored out of his mind? Would he feel what God has been trying to tell him? I prayed so very much since he left Friday until yesterday. At the end of these retreats they hold a special closing ceremony so that family and friends can be there for support. Well we decided to surprise him and we took off yesterday morning in order to be there by 3 pm! I say surprise him because we never mentioned that we would go. He left Friday @ noon along with 5 other men and as he left I thought to myself, "God please guide all of them in Your path" So Leslie, my mom, and I get there and we hide so Cesar couldnt see us. To see him be SOOOO into the worship and sing to our Savior--- It brought tears to our eyes, bawling!! But they were tears of happiness... When the service ended, Leslie and I went up tom him from behind and he was totally shocked and so happy to see us as we were as well to see him! We held each other for what seemed an eternity but we didnt want to let go and it was just amazing! I hope this lasts in him forever!! There were so many men that attended, we were very surprised to see all of them together in worship and loving it! Cesar said he enjoyed it so much and he didnt even want to leave, lol! I remember feeling the same way when I went.... it was just so much peace and heart filled of so much LOVE... *big sigh* There were even 4 men that proposed to their "wives" in civil union to be married through the church.!! That was def another tear fest! lol... all in all my friends this was something so amazing for my family and we are so blessed to have been able to live this. whew! Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed! :) Much love, Yess :)