Dr. visit

Hey gals and dudes if you are reading also.. :) so today was the first time I saw the dr again since leaving the hospital... I mentally prepared myself or so I thought and much prayer like always.. the wait in the room was agonizing enough but I managed to keep my mind occupied as I looked out the window at construction right there by clinic @ hospital... Scary big machines and cranes with guys on harnesses hanging literally from the side of their work place. I waited and waited and prayed and prayed... Finally dr walks in and he is just so nice that I am so blessed to have him as my doctor in this trying time. His name is very appropriate as well, Dr. Heaven. :) Hes very personable and talkative. Very informative, however with this condition there is really no explanation as to why it happens, what triggers it or when it will go away.. Thats a lil unsettling to my heart and soul, but I must stay strong and know that God is in control. Really KNOW He is and not have any doubt... a prayer with doubt is not a valid prayer! I had blood work done there and my platelet count has gone down, but perhaps because of the meds also going down on dosage. 6 more days of meds and then nothing to see how I maintain the count on my own. I asked about something that is very dear to me, whether or not a pregnancy would trigger this ITP even more. He said theres really no way of knowing, but because this is my 2nd episode and this time without a fetus, I would more than likely be at high risk of going through this again. That part really saddens me deeply. For years we have wanted another baby, but the fear of me going through this again and how dangerous the situation could become has prevented or halted us from doing so. Many times though I have let God know that Im at peace if its His will for us just to be blessed with Leslie, our miracle indeed. But in the back of my heart, theres always that lil want for another baby... Oh well, I need to overcome that and take care of my health exactly for Leslie above all, she needs me and I cant be selfish and "want" what isnt possible and then God forbid leave her alone to fend for herself. I will pray even more for the strength I need to let go of things like those. The wants and needs on my part do not count, the want or need He decides to grant me is what DOES count. I have wonderful friends who are so supportive of me no matter what and that is definately a plus especially at times like these. I need them so much to prop me back up when I begin to slide down... Thank you girls! :) That is a blessing in itself! Next appt isnt until Feb. 15th, so we'll see. Smiles and positiveness until then! oh btw, off to the treadmill due to the 5 lbs Ive gained.. not bueno! and its all in my cheeks!!! Darn steroids! lol! much love, ciao! Yess :)

Blessed day :)

Hello amigos!!! So we started our day off fairly early this morn in preparation of our trip to Abilene to baptize lil Matthew Ramon... No drama so that was def a plus! Everyone in good mood and smooth sailing! The church service was great and was packed. Baptisms were held afterwards for some odd reason, but it was nice not to have so many people's eyes on us :) Matthew did wonderful, he slept thru service and was well rested for his big debut! The holy water was warm and startled him a bit, but he was okay after... all smiles! Sweet baby :) This makes our 5th Godchild of baptism... such a blessing. Les loves it even more because these are all her brothers and sisters as well! She makes sure to let everyone know also! I remember when she was in pre-k, she shared with ther teacher and dictated to her so that the following could be written: I have 2 sisters and 1 brother... and when I met the teacher she asked for my children??? I was like um, Les is my only daughter..??? Then she explained... Oh Les, should've known! Afterwards we went to have lunch with the family, and because I wasnt doing so bueno with the good ole stomach from the day before I was afraid to eat anything, but thankfully Im doing good. I went with a safe salad. :) We drove back and have been relaxing the rest of the day and sure have enjoyed it! Thank you God for this beautiful day you blessed us with! Tomorrow Monday again, back to the routine... I have a doctor's appt tomorrow afternoon so I hope all goes well!! I have God by my side so let me rephrase that, I KNOW all will go well!!! Still praying super duper hard!! I feel better each day, a lil tired from time to time, but I just rest it out a lil bit and recharge to keep on going like the energizer bunny! I want to be able to do more exercise activity, waistline is reminding me of that... ick! But I def want to be healthy above all things, so friends you gotta love me thin or FAT! too bad! LOL :) well, thats it for now, Im tired and going to call it a night,,, or as my friends know, going to go to bed and still have my phone and post away until 11 pm on Facebook!!! hahahaha! catch ya there! Much love, Yess :)

weekend ahead...

well well well, Friday evening again... Just got done eating a scrumptious dinner and am absolutely stuffed and SATISFIED! lol! When food is Satisfying, there is a problem-yikes! Again friends, I blame it on the meds for this increased appetite, although I do have to say for the most part it is healthy eating and not junk food exageration... :) Today was so beautiful outside and the sun shining so bright! However, sadly cold front tonight and back to the 50's & 60's this weekend. Oh well, whatever weather God sends we must accept! We have to make a trip to A-town manana to run some errands and there is a birthday party we are invited to as well... Not so sure if we will able to make it or not yet due to other circumstances... And then Sunday we go again to Abilene and baptise baby Matthew! :) This will make our 5th God child! So blessed to be able to hold such responsibility!! Makes me happy though that they choose us to hold this important role in their baby's life. First and foremost to keep the faith in them as we set a very good example in how we live everyday! :) Just a lil problem, I cant decide on what to wear for it yet!!! Always the dilemna!!! haha.. I dare not to bring it up to the hubby though because I can hear the griping already- closet full and you dont know what to wear???!!! ugh, men, they just dont understand about these things! :) He has his outfit ready and got his haircut today in prep of.. haha.. men are just so much simpler, nice shirt and slacks and voila they are ready! We'll see how Sunday goes with all of this.. I will post pics of the outcome! I was also planning on working on our tax return this weekend but Im missing a W-2... grrr.... Im ready for some extra $$$$$... LOL.... well thats all for tonight chicos and chicas! Much love and smile always! Lifes too short not to. :)

Interesting day....

We meet again! :) So today I went back to substituting for the school, only half a day, but it was a good transition to getting back into swing of things... Its nice staying home and relaxing, but it can get boring and lonely :( I missed my little students and they were happy to see me and that made my day! It doesnt pay well, but the hours and convenience of being at the same place with my daughter makes it worth it! And plus I can still tend to my wife and mother duties afterwards without being pressed for time or stressed out of my mind!!! I also feel like Im helping out a little financially as well... I did feel like I missed out on my mini nap though, haha... I could have so curled up and slept right there in the classroom around 2ish!! LOL well, that was the highpoint of my day besides shopping for car insurance and home insurance, what a pain!!! Its reasonable but jst the fact of comparing here and there is a drag! well guys until next time, Im out, literally, for the night! Sweet dreams! :)

super duper happy day!

Hello friends! So lets see where do I begin today... I guess by telling everyone the super duper happiness I feel!! This morning was the first day to really see what kind of progress Ive made regarding my platelet count since being out of the hospital and on medication... so, I said a lil prayer calmly and filled with lots of FAITH and headed out the door. They took my blood and informed me it would only take about 15 mins to let me know the results so as I waited I maintained much peace and was very confident that God has never left my side... and then TA-TA-TA-TAN!!!! The greatest news I could have heard the lab tech tell me, "yay they found you some platelets alright! count 189,000!!!!" YIPEEE!!! I could have so done the happy dance right then and there! I thanked God sooooo much for allowing this to happen! And I just know that I will continue to do better each day with tons of prayer and most all BELIEVE what I pray. There is such thing you know that people can pray with doubt... such as what if He doesnt hear me, and what if my prayers dont get answered? But we have to completely do away with the doubtful and rhetorical questions. Be firm and clear when you pray and talk to God and He will def listen, no questions asked! So needless to say that made for a great start to my terrific Tuesday! Last night we attended a church service in Abilene, they hold this special service every 3rd Monday @ St. Francis Catholic Church and I absolutely love it! I felt at so much MORE peace when I left and to know that all the people there had been and continue to pray for my health is so uplifting. I got up to speak in front of everyone to give my testimony of faith and what I have been through these past couple of weeks... I did better than I thought I would, not alot of tears!! yay! lol. I needed to share His wonderful work and healing and it felt good. We got home late, but it is always so worth it! :) ok, guys and gals, until next time! Luv to all!

Yess :)

a relaxing Sunday :)

Hello my friends! Today was such a great and relaxing day for me! I am so very grateful! Of course how much better could I have started it then by attending church! Service was great and I was so blessed to be able to be there after missing out last Sunday due to me being hospitalized :( Health wise I felt even better today than yesterday, which is always a plus for sure! Each day I seem to be gaining more strength and dont get AS tired although I do feel tired periodically throughout the day... But I know I have Him right by my side so Im gonna be A-OKAY! I even managed to do a lil local shopping with my mommy, that always cheers one up right?! I am really gonna miss her though when she leaves for work tomorrow... She has been such a blessing, good company, support and on and on..... Did I mention cooking! awww.... def gonna miss that! I thank God for my mom! Tuesday I am having bloodwork to see how I am doing so please pray for me friends!!!!! I will def keep all posted... U decided to join me on this ride, you are stuck with me! Love to all and may everyone have a fabulous week and may God bless each and everyone of you in whatever you may do!!! xoxoxo

Beginning of a new hobby :)

Well well, where to begin... I have been wanting to start a blog for a while now after seeing so many of my friends keep up with one, so here it goes! I hope to be able to keep it up to date and if I dont I will summarize the best that I can~

End of new year and into the beginning was a little rocky for our household. However, by the grace of our mighty God, we are coming out of this strong! Let me just tell ya a lil about it...

When I was pregnant with our daughter, I suffered from a low platelet count called Thrombocytopenia... Throughout the pregnancy, it was very difficult for me not only physically but emotionally as well. Thank God, although she was born premature @ 8 months, she is a beautiful healthy little 7 year old! You would have never known by seeing her now that she was ever a tiny premie of 3 lbs. 14 ozs. She has exceeded her height and growing healthy and strong! So anyway, back to the illness... when my platelet count got dangerously low, I was at risk for hemorraging, literally could bleed to death. Very scary. The only indication I had then was a "rash" I noticed coming up on random spots of my body... later known to me as Petichae... broken blood vessels/capillaries under the skin... but by the time I see these spots its because my count is LOW! Normal count for everyone is at LEAST 150,000 and up, back then I had maybe 5,000... maybe... so hospitalization for sure.. on top of carrying a baby, yikes! Throughout my prenancy I was on a steroid treatment to increase my platelet count and to be able to carry my baby. Did I BLOW UP! lol, at 4 months, I looked as if I was 7 or 8 months already!! Needless to say, that certain medication increases appetite! Well, I delivered her well with no problems besides all these obstacles and had a lil trouble with this illness still for about a year or 2 after her birth... These last 5 years I have been fairly healthy and carefree of this problem, UNTIL.... last 2 weeks of 2009!

I was under ALOT of stress during the holiday time, not even having to do with the whole gift mess, just lots of people sick in my family, etc.... and I felt as if I was incapable of doing more for them! I felt almost useless... My husband has his parents in MX, 18 hours away from here and he had left right after Christmas to spend time with them and was gone for 11 LONG days! It really had an impact on me... I missed him extremely, I felt so ALONE... so anyway, I start noticing this hideous rash again!!! YES after all these years here it was to haunt me again! I was scared and of course stubborn not wanting to go to dr... thinking "it will go away" well it wasnt going away and was in fact getting progressively worse. So finally I broke down, literally tears and all, and got the courage to face this @ a local doctors office Friday Jan. 8th... day of truth. I was sent to have bloodwork and based on my past history, there was no doubt that it had to do with this darn platelet count again. Sure enough although doctor told me I wouldnt be hearing from him until Monday with results, not even an hour passed when I get the dreaded phonecall... "Mrs. Palacios, you need to go to ER immediately, just received your results and your platelet count is 9,000" I bawled my eyes out and wanted to be in such denial... We arrived @ ER and with my heartbroken and super scared, they decided to transfer me by ambulance to Abilene Regional Medical Center to be closer to a specialist in this field. Saturday morning after bloodwork, my count dropped even more to 2,000. YES, I thought oh my, what next? Doctor informed me that I was not even to get up by myself to bathroom because I could BLEED and they would not be able to stop it! and that I would be started immediately on an immunoglobin treatment for 4 days to see how it worked to get me better. so Friday I was an emotional mess, but friends I have to share with you that Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues (day I was finally released) I felt at such peace. Peace from God and my faith kept me strong and willing to continue... MUCH MUCH prayer and prayers from so many people allowed me to get better each day! THANK YOU! Sunday I wake up to 14,000 count, Monday, 47,000 and Tuesday when I left 97,000!!!! PRAISE GOD! Later I will share my encounter with God at a retreat I attended first week of December, and I truly beleive this helped me so much to get through this recent dificult time. Whew! what a way to start a blog huh??? oh and btw, I was able to be @ home the following day for my birthday!!! not an all great way to celebrate, but I gave so much thanks for allowing me to be alive another b-day!!! :)